Tag: My Life

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A Light!

Finally, a light!

First of all, thank you Moonwoolf for the reactions. They did cheer me up!

Secondly, I finally decided on a Sarah Day! Just a complete day, only for me, just a little selfish me day.

What I will do? I decided it would be good to take a closer look to my closet and the way I’m dressed. Since this is part of me feeling unhappy from time to time, I booked a day at a consultant who helps you with which colours and which style is making you look better, without actually changing anything to your body, but just by changing the clothes or wearing clothes differently.

At first, I was a little sceptic, not knowing if investing in that rather small expensive gift for myself would be the thing that would make me happy but after talking to the lady who does the analysis and gives the advises, I’m in. Quite a lot of time I had the feeling she understand what I mean and that she can teach me what I should and should not do. Awesome!
I hope she can somehow learn me to touch that button to let me feel proud and happy of myself. Or as I sometimes feel when I came back from the hairdresser: just on a little cloud, my very own cloud, just being proud about myself!

Let’s wait and see if that can happen, but I somehow have the feeling that it will be possible.

Februari 28th will be my own day.

I know it’s not a day widely accepted, but that day, will this year be my very own Sarah Day! 🙂

Now I will head to the postcards, lettersets, pen and envelopes to write postcards and letters….

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Pink – Sober

I don’t wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don’t wanna be that call at 4 o’clock in the morning
‘Cos I’m the only one you know in the world that won’t be home

Aahh the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oohh, I am finding
That’s not the way I want my story to end

I’m safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain
Inside
You’re like protection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I don’t wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me cause it screams the truth
Please don’t tell me that we had that conversation
I won’t remember, save your breath, ‘cos what’s the use?

Aahh, the night is calling?
And it whispers to me softly come and play
But I, I am falling
And If I let myself go I’m the only one to blame

I’m safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain
Inside
You’re like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I’m coming down, coming down, coming down
Spinning ’round, spinning ’round, spinning ’round
Looking for myself – SOBER (x2)

When it’s good, then it’s good, it’s so good till it goes bad
Till you’re trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again
Broken down in agony just tryna find a fit

Ooo Oooo

I’m safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain
Inside
You’re like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober

OOooo OOoo

No Pain
Inside
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain
Inside
You’re like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?

Will I ever feel this good sober?
Tell me, No no no no no pain
How do I feel this good sober?

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Bliss – Kissing

Bliss – Kissing

The red light of the sun
Slowly descending
The sky is all I see
It´s never ending

We could fly
You and I
On a cloud
Kissing

The wind plays with the leaves
The weather turns colder
But as long as we believe
Love doesn´t get older

We could fly
You and I
On a cloud
Kissing

On a journey of the heart
There´s so much to see
And when the sky is dark
You´ll be right here
Right here with me
kissing 

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Plumb – Cut

I’m not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile flame aged
Is misery
And when our hearts meet
I know you see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I’m tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn’t be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don’t want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I’m tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I’m not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I’m tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut

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Coldplay – In My Place

Coldplay – In My Place

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn’t change
I was lost, oh yeah

I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn’t have crossed
I was lost, oh yeah

Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Yeah, how long must you pay for him?
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?

I was scared, I was scared
Tired and underprepared
But I wait for you

If you go, if you go
Leaving me here on my own
Well I wait for you

Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Yeah, how long must you pay for him?
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?

Please, please, please
Come on and sing to me
To me, me

Come on and sing it out, out, out
Come on and sing it now, now, now
Come on and sing it

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn’t change
I was lost, oh yeah
Oh yeah