Postcrossing

Have you ever heard of Postcrossing? It’s really wonderful and so very addicitive!! When you sign up, you can ask for addresses of other members so that you can send them a postcard! Your address will be given from the moment on, someone asks for it..  It’s really great as you can get many postcards from all over the world!

Along with this, you also have a history map, where you can see to whom you send postcards! It’s looking really complicated!! 🙂 (As you can see, there are red lines ans blue lines so that you can see the difference between send cards and received cards! )

History Map of October 12th, 2006

Finally an update!

Here I am again.. And finally a decent update instead of the small messages I wrote in the meantime via my mobilephone. I will add them to the moblogging.. It’s fun and fine for small updates but a whole update like this one, is something where I should go sit down for and write!

Not sure where i would start, so I’d start at the working side, since that’s what I have most updates about!
Until now I have always worked at a computer shop where I worked as a Technical Support Employee.. This means I help people with computer problems at the phone and e-mail. On top of that, I also got a few responsibilities in the last few months. First of all, they asked me if I could write a small tip or hint for the customers who are registered for our news letter which is send out via email every week! And so every week I write something! At some time it’s about a huge problem, and sometimes it’s just a hint to make the use of the computer easier! 🙂
Anyway, since not everything is going like it should be.. I can actually be very honest about that.. Colleagues are making it more difficult for me by the way they behave, how they react on things and how they prove to be shamelessly unfriendly or better mean when someone is assigned with more responsibilities then they are. All despite the fact that they are working longer in the company then I do..
Since everyone is going on summer holidays and so is our excecutive, someone had to fill out the sheets where everything is written down how long someone worked. Also the sheme that said who had to work from when until when was something that had to be updated.. Because I feel responsible for what I do, I have been asked to take this tasks and do them.. I was happy with the change of work.. Instead of being on the phone all day, there was a possibility for me to do something different! Either way, somehow colleagues started acting differently.. In the beginning I thought it was because it was a huge change, but since I wasn’t the one who had to take huge decissions when something went wrong, there was actually nothing much that has changed.. But somehow people saw me differently.. They were ( and sadly enough still are) complaining about every step I take.. If something isn’t right to my feeling, I do something about it. I talk to the one who did it and if needed I will ask the chief to what has to be done..
But somehow they didn’t accept it, and made it very difficult to me..

A few months ago, I was really struggling with what I should do with my life.. work related I mean then..
I have my degree to make programs but am helping customers via the phone, it’s a huge difference.. Since I had already decided that I would love to find a job where I can actually make programs, like what I studied for.. Somehow it never came so far.. Every weekend there was something that came across so I could not write my resume and letter to find out if the job offer was still present and if they were interested in having me for an interview..
Since the colleagues made it so bad or terrible, I decided it was time for me to start looking for another job.. It feel so bad to know that when you feel fuilly responsible for something, you get ‘shot’ down so bad by them.. 🙁
This isn’t really what colleagues do.. at least, that’s how I see it..
I’m more then sick of the way they behave..
Anyway, it’s been 2 weeks, on sunday that I decided to take my chances and courage together and write on 3 job offers I had seen on a website called Monsterboard.. You might know it.. Some countries have the same one or something alike.. anyway, it’s a collection of all kinds of jobs..
From the very first company I already got a call on the Monday that followed and I had to do a kind of IQ test and an test to find out how you are as a person.. On Thursday, I already got a call from one of the people at the company, to talk with me about the tests that I had made.. I had done pretty well on both tests and they were interrested in having a first interview with me.. I made an appointment with them for Tuesday the 8th of August.. We’ll see what happens! it’s very exciting! 🙂
A second company contacted me at the end of the week, I believe it was Friday, as they also wanted to see me.. They planned a half day to have 4 interviews in total, and if I fit in the company and have the needed capacities they will do me an offer for a job.. So we will see what happens! That will be on the 16th of August! So it’s all very exciting!! 🙂
The very last company of the 3 I send my information to, has contacted me today, also to ask for an interview.. well actually for 2 interviews on 1 day.. we’ll see what happens…. I have to make an appointment for the last one..

Anyway, that how it all goes workwise..

As for my relation.. Arthur and I are nearly 6 years together! It’s been so wonderful to live together! 🙂
We offcourse have our ups and downs, but there are more ups then downs, so thats good! 😀

About a month ago, there was sad news..
There was a heat wave then, and Google, my hamster, didn’t survive.. I feel really bad about this.. I miss her very much.. and hope she’s been taken good care of where she is now..
Hopefully some time I will close her in my arms again and hold her..
I hope she will wait for me at the rainbow bridge..

.. guess that’s all for my news for now.. think I will push the save button.. when more comes nearby, I will post it.. 😉

Trying again..

Here I am, trying again.. trying again to keep this blog alive and updated as often as i can.. it’s so sad to see that it’s been so very long that i wrote while there has been so much to write about.. anyway since i can barely keep my eyes open and i’m more than ready for bed, I’ll end here.. hoping i won’t forget to come back here tomorrow and write more.. if you read this, goodnight!

I wish..

I wish I knew why.. But I don’t .. There is no logical explanation or not just 1 reason why I feel like I feel.. I can go from one moment to the other being completely happy to terribly down.. I just can’t explain.. I don’t know why… At times I just look at my left arm.. and wonder if it would be terribly bad if I would start hurting myself.. I know it’s no use, I mean, it won’t solve anything, but it might help me in getting rid of these feelings I feel where I don’t know what to do with..
~my mind I see it going up and down my arm~

I don’t know what else I should write, my head’s a total mess.. Maybe I should just start by putting everything on order in my head and write from there.. But then again, I wish I knew where to start..

~ponders~

At the moment, I feel best with the song from Amanda Marshall – Beautiful Goodbye..
and secretly go sit down in a small corner..

Here I am again…

Yes indeed.. Here I am again.. I know it’s a little longer then yesterday that I have written in my blog, but either way, I think I will just write here! 🙂

Today I have mixed feelings, partly because I’m still somewhat sick from the cold I have caught last weekend.. I have been searching all my energy together to go to work in the past few days, to be honest, Tuesday I DID feel really bad, but either way, I did go.. When I see how terrible my colleagues are working today, I wonder why I do such things.. I mean, it would have been better for me and my health that I stayed at home a day and just rested. I find it uneasy to explain why I’m staying home to my supervisor, but when I saw him playing today.. I felt really tired angry and disappointed… Most of my colleagues were running around trying to tease each other.. but it was very disturbing for the others to work then.. Anyway, let’s hope it won’t be happening tomorrow.. (To be honest, I’m afraid it will happen then as well.. but I’m glad there are still colleagues who understand how it feels like and do their best to help with all the work there is.. luckily!) as I said I feel down, disappointed and tired about this.. but on the other hand..

I feel happy! I have my very own birthday party coming up!! Soon I will be 24!Another 16 days and then it’s my day again!! My mom has asked me what I would love to have for birthday present, but to be honest, I do not know at all.. I really wish I knew, but I don’t.. There are so many things that I want to have, but they are all so very expensive or just small things I want to have that it’s hard to ask something from her. I honestly have no idea. Something I would really love to have is an MP3 player. One with a HUGE amount of space where I can put much music on.. but that more or less equals with a huge price for the device.. I also have to buy a new phone in a few months and maybe it would be an idea to have 1 device for both things.. but I certainly have no idea what it is that I would love to have..

So again.. Mixed feelings..

Let’s see what the faeries are telling me today..

“Trust Your Intuition”

Has your inner guidance been trying to get your attention lately? Perhaps a gut feeling is tugging at you like a seeing-eye dog, an inner voice has been screaming at you, or you’ve had dreams charged with profound emotions and symbolism lately. By drawing this card, you’re being urged to pay careful attention to these various forms of intuition.

Now is not the time to ignore these messages or procrastinate. Trust this inner wisdom, just as you would if it came from a respected teacher. Know that you aren’t imagining the guidance. Its powerful and repetitive voice is a sign that you are truly getting clear and trustworthy messages that are worth following.